Patetiko
5/4/2009
Koliko je stvari koje bi trebalo da zapamtim, a ni sve sile ovog sveta nekad ne uspevaju da mi samo jednu rečenicu ubace u glavu.. Čudno... Pesma koja me podseća na sebe je ugravirana duboko u mom mozgu i apsolutno je nikad neću zaboraviti... Još je čudnije što čak ni prepevani tekst iz neke knjige koji trenutno nema veze samnom samo pravi gužvu na nekoliko sekundi u mom mozgu, onda ispari, ostaju slova na papiru, a ja se ne sećam ni šta sam pročitala, ni šta sam otpevala, ni šta sam videla... Hvala Bogu, takvih dana je jako malo.. Danas je jedan od njih... Posvetiću mu se...
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I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cried
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side...
Uvrnuto, stvarno nikad nisam dopustila sebi da mi bilo koji dan ikad prođe,a da dobar deo njega ne posvetim sebi.. Isto tako nikad nisam u životu dopustila da me iko vidi da plačem, još od petog razreda osnovne škole, ni najbolja drugarica, čak ni roditelji, smatrala sam to glupostima koje će proći i da nijedna suza koju sam pustila nije vredna ničega i nikog, smeh je lek i uvek sam bila nasmejana... Naravno ni dan danas se ništa nije promenilo, ipak kad pustim koju suzu za njim to je uglavnom zato što mi fali on.. I možda jesam egoista i mislim na sebe, ali eto fali mi zagrljaj, dodir, poljubac, seks.. Sve... I možda izgleda da mislim samo na sebe kada ovo izgovaram, tj pišem, i baš to je razlog zašto volim da svoje egoistične misli zadržim za sebe. Grlim jastuk kad ne mogu da zaspim.. Jastuk koji miriše na njega, možda zato i uspevam da ga sanjam u onoj čuvenoj REM fazi apsolutno svaku noć ili svaki put kad zaspim...
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When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it okay
I miss you...
Ne trebaš mi ... Patetiko..
I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
They lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do
When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it ok
I miss you
We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
Yeah, yeah
And all I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me
Yeah
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it ok
I miss you
